Last night, I had a dream; and in this dream I think I saw the man I am supposed to be with. In other words, I think I saw my soul mate.
It was a face I’ve never seen before. Or, should I say, it was someone that I didn’t know. I never got to know his name, only his face. But as vivid as it was, when I awoke the delicate webs that sleep has spun around me slowly disintegrated and so did the picture of his face. I was saddened yet strangely enough, hopeful, when I finally wiped away the last vestiges of sleep in my face.
Somewhere, he’s out there… and somehow someday, we will meet.
Hindi ko alam kung ano ang problema niya, hindi ko alam kung ano ang problema ko sa kaniya. Hindi namin alam kung ano ang problema sa aming dalawa.
Kanina lang, naglog-on ako sa Yahoo! Messenger at hindi ako naka-invisible gaya ng dati. Laking gulat ko nung nakita kong naglog-in din siya. Tapos maslalo akong nagulat kasi bigla siyang umalis… Ano kaya yun?? Ito ba’y dahil nakita niyang nakalog-on ako at ayaw niya akong makausap? Nung isang gabi nga, parehas kaming nasa YM at di kami nagpapansinan, para kaming naglalaro: “sino’ng unang bibigay at makikichat”.
Ang gulo na talaga ng utak ko, lalung lalo na ang nararamdaman ko. Hay lecheng pag-ibig nga naman talaga o. Wala na akong ibang magagawa kundi ang mapabuntung-hininga. Nakakalungkot isipin, kaibigan nung una, nagka-ibigan, muntik nang maging ngunit hanggang kaibigan lang pala ang makakaya. Akala ko siya na, pero sa mga asta niya nitong mga nakaraang araw? He’s not worth it.
Pero bakit ganito? Kahit gusto ko na talaga siyang pabayaan, ayaw pa rin ng utak at puso ko (leche, drama na naman. Ito ang ayoko sa mga ganito). Nakukulitan na nga ako sa sarili ko. Paano naman kasi, siya itong magulo. Sabi niya nung una, “friends” na lang daw. Tapos babaliktad, ang lambing-lambing na naman niya, kulang na lang magsyota. Syotang-ina talaga! Parang siya itong babae! Masmalala pa siya kaysa sa’kin!
Hindi ko alam kung ano ang nasasaktan sa akin ngayon: ang puso o ang ego?
Mahal ko ba talaga siya o gusto ko lang siya?
Ano ba talaga ang nararamdaman niya sa akin?
Leche siya. Ginagago lang ba niya ako??
Mga tanong na di ko rin mawari ang sagot.
Sana hindi na lang umabot sa ganito, sana wala na lang nagkaaminan. Sana di na lang kami nagging malapit sa isa’t isa.
Sana, sana, sana…
1. The phone rings. Who do you want itto be?
* it's either one of my BFFs
2. When shopping at the grocery store,
do you return your cart?
* nope..
3. In a social setting, are you more
of a talker or a listener?
* if i have something good to say, i
talk..but if none, i just listen..
4. Do you take compliments well?
* yes... i thank the person. I could tell if they wanted something from me naman eh.
5. Do you play Sudoku?
* a little bit. Mom does though.
6. If abandoned alone in the
wilderness, would you survive?
* i think for a few days, i would. Then I'd be prey.
7. Have you ever been in love?
* yes. a human thing.
8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
* what camp??haha
9. What was your favorite hobby as a
kid?
* read and read books i borrowed from the school library.
10. Who is your favorite band/ singer?
* none in particular. But i do like PCD, john legend and gwen stefani.
11. What is your favorite song?
* right now would be... Come to Me by p.diddy and nicole scherzinger.
12. Could you date someone with
different religious beliefs than you?
* it's just a date. so yeah i guess so.
14. Use three words to describe
yourself?
* beautiful, paradox, unexpected.
15. Do any songs make you cry?
* when i'm in the mood, yeah they actually do.
16. Are you continuing your education?
* yes. i'll take up the national review for the NLE.
17. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
* no.but i want to learn how.
18. If your house was on fire, what
would be the first thing you'd bring?
* my loved ones.
19. How often do you read books?
* often... it also depends on what book.
20. Do you think more about the past,
* i guess. but i try not to dwell on it too much. hard habit to break though.
21. What is your favorite children's
book?
* Beauty and the Beast.
22.What color are your eyes?
* chocolate brown
23.How tall are you?
* 5'4"
24. Where is your dream house located?
* by the beach or on a cliff.
27. Have you ever taken pictures in a
photo booth?
* yes. i love taking pictures.
28. When was the last time u sang?
* a short while ago.
30. Where was the furthest place you
traveled today?
* downstairs to the dining room.
32. Do you like mustard?
* yes yes, especially with mayonnaise.
33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
* both.
34. Do you look like your mom or dad?
* a little of both.
35. How long do you take in the shower?
* 30 minutes to an hour.
36. Can you do splits?
* i used to when i still knew karate.
37. What movie do you want to see
right now?
* Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix!!!!!
39. What did you do for New Year's?
* attended mass, eat, had some fireworks, drink some bubbly
40. Do you think The Grudge was scary?
* yeah..
42. Do you own a camera phone?
* nope.
44. Was your mom a cheerleader?
* no.. she was the one being cheered on 'coz she's a varsity player on the university's basketball team plus she's the muse at the same time..hahahaha..
45. What's the last letter of your
first name?
* a
47. How many hours of sleep do you get
at night?
* depends
48. Do you like care bears?
* no.
49. What do you buy at the movies?
* ticket, food and drinks
50. Do you know how to play poker?
* nope. they kept trying to teach me though....
51. Do you wear your seatbelt?
* yeah..
52. What do you wear to sleep?
* sando and boxer shorts when its warm. shirt and jammies when it's cooler.
53. Anything big ever happen in your
hometown?
* i wouldn't know.
54. How many meals do you eat a day?
* 3..i'm trying to cut down on the snacks. haha
56. Do you always read Friendster
bulletins?
* nah.. only when I have nothing new to post here..
58. Do you like funny or serious
people better?
* both..
59. Ever been to L.A.?
* nah.. i want to..
60. Did you eat a cookie today?
* nope..
61. Do you use curse words?
* yes, especially when i'm mad..
62. Do you steal or pay for your music
download?
* is bearshare considered stealing?
64. What do you and your parents fight
about the most?
* i don't know exactly. ME??
65. Are you a gullible person?
* used to be.
67. If you could have any job..
* i wanna be an artist. a musician or a singer.
68. Are you easy to get along with?
* yes
69. What is your favorite time of day?
* night time...
Now repost this as "69 Confessions"