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I HATE MY GROUPMATES!!! THEY ARE INSUFFERABLE! I DON'T CARE IF THEY GET TO READ THIS BLOG!!! SO MUCH THE BETTER! I HOPE THEY DIE DIE DIE!!!!!!!!

I can't understand why they are the way they are. They are all so selfish, so self-absorbed, egoistic, stupid, self-serving, low-life, motherfucking, cock-sucking, idiotic, below-sea-level life forms!!!!!!

Today, they all got on my nerves!!!!

(deep breaths.... deeeeep breaths...... veeeeryy looooong deeeep breaaaths........)

Where to start...?

It all started when I set foot in the hospital at 6:40 in the morning. Let's name NAMES...... I was going up to the dressing room at the fifth floor when K-anne came to me and said, "Czar, czar! May kasalanan ako sa'yo... malaking kasalanan..." I was then immediately put on guard for what she was about to tell me. She told me that the four of us who weren't able to go for on-call duties last year were top priority for on-call this year. Yesterday, when I went home ahead, the other three decided that they should draw lots to see who will go for 16 hours duty today. Unfortunately, K-anne told me I was left with the number that indicated I wasn't going for on-call. I was a little pissed off because it was so unfair of them. I wasn't there. To add to that, she didn't even remember to text me and tell me about their f**king decision. I told her right then and there that it was unfair. But it was obvious that they didn't want to give up their slots, or draw lots again now that I was there.

So having been told that, I proceeded to the dressing room with a thoughtful look on my face. I went on about my work, but as the day wore on, it got more difficult.

You want to know why?

Because my ever-so-loving and helpful groupmates kept asking me to do stuff for them that they could do themselves (JUST BECAUSE IT WAS A PART OF MY ROLE IN FUNCTIONAL NURSING MODALITY. I WAS THE ROUTINE NURSE). They know I am busy, they know that I have lots of other things to do, but STILL they keep piling up all this crap on me. It was supposed to be a teamwork.

Take for example, situation 1: I told patient X to press the buzzer if ever her IV bottle is about 100 ml level already. Then, it got busy in the ward. I was ordered by the staff nurse to get the blood pressure of patient Y because she was hypertensive. But when I arrived at the ward, K-anne and Joyce were standing infront of the bed of patient X, pointing at the IV bottle which has actually run dry, and not doing anything about it. With the blood pressure cuff in hand, I was stopped in my tracks by their words. They were just staring at me and at the bottle, "Czar yung IV mo run dry na..." Oh my GOD! Don't they have any common sense?! They could help me out a little, y'know??! They could've closed the IV line and THEN called for my attention. They were risking the patient further. I admit, I was wrong because I neglected my duty, but GOD so help me... My groupmates are so... ugh!!!!!

To add the cherry on top, the four of us were having a dilemma over the on-call duty. Nancy, K-ann and Emerj didn't want to give up on their slots. On the second draw-lots, I got in. Emerj was out. But then, she insisted that we draw lots again because she HAS to go on duty tonight BECAUSE she has important stuff to do tomorrow. Yeah. Like we don't have any either!!!

SELFISH, SELFISH, SELFISH!!!

I was wasting time over bullshit, so I told them, "You know what? You can have it. Since you've already decided between the three of you to have a draw-lots yesterday and you got in, you go ahead! Have your completion duty! Anyway, I only wanted a fair chance, but since nobody wants to give up, then I GIVE UP. I'm going, because I have other more important things to do and more patients to attend to."

I felt so bad after that, I wanted to cry really hard. I felt so ANGRY. But I couldn't bring it out. I walked home to calm myself down. And believe me, it was a long walk.

Someday, they'll get theirs........ Bad Karma for them!

Well, it's 2007! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Christmas in Baguio turned out to be one of the best decisions we've ever made. It wasn't so bad after all. In fact, it was great! Although I didn't get out of the house to roam around the city with my family (just like my youngest sister Golda!), I was content on staying home and just bonding with the family. It was the only time that I would be able to actually hang out with them for that long.

You see, the great thing about our house in Baguio was that it was smaller than our family house. We see each other everyday, in fact, what with our number (9 to be exact) we "bump" into each other a lot! This Christmas, it felt just the way it should be. It was really a time spent with the family together. Now if we were in Vigan for Christmas, I would almost always be found in front of my laptop typing away and surfing the net, or in bed and asleep, or in front of the television. Most of us would be doing our own thing. Sometimes, I'd only see some of my siblings during mealtime. They'd be out with their friends or holed up in their own rooms like me.

So, even if I didn't feel that excited about spending Christmas there in Baguio, I realize now that it doesn't matter where you spend your Christmas, it's whom you spend your Christmas with that matters.

New Year was celebrated here in Vigan. We passed through a town that made fireworks and I insisted that we buy even just a little. We never had a New Year's celebration with fireworks. So we bought sparklers and 2 fountains. My parents didn't want those that were too dangerous. It was okay. The sparklers and fountains turned out to be rip-offs, they didn't even sparkle. But it was quite funny! We screamed and giggled as if it were those big noisy fireworks. Last night, we all helped in preparing the food for the Medya Noche. We ate so much food and drank wine and looked at the fireworks display that our neighbors were lighting up. We laughed and told jokes, shared stories and ate some more.

Tomorrow, I will be going back to Baguio for the start of the classes for this year. The year 2006 ended wonderfully, and I hope that this year, 2007, will be the start of a wonderful journey yet again.