It's who I am... How I think... and what I'd like to share to the world...

Every night as I lay on my bed and think of how my day has gone, I feel a soft nudge in the region of my heart. It seems to want to remind me that it harbors too much... Too much of what? Too much sadness, too much loneliness...

I lie in wait as I stare at a starless sky... Waiting for what? For the moon to shine and the stars to appear, winking at me as if they know my secrets...everything that I hold dear...every ache and every joy... and yet, I think they do...

I stare out the window... staring, staring, staring... but actually seeing nothing of the sunshine and the beauty that is the world outside... No tears fall from my eyes, instead I choke back.

When will the leaves fall? When will my winter pass? When will I step out of the cold and into the warmth?

I pray... and yet I do not pray...

I whisper, then, my secrets to Someone, hoping He hears them...

Slowly, slowly, I fall into a deep slumber.

Hoping that upon awakening, I will no longer find myself invisible.